Yes, it took me that long to settle, fix my things, unpack my luggage and feel comfortable again with my new environment before I finally write again.
I never imagine that it would be different compared to just going home for a short visit. It felt weird, trying to fit in to your home… there are times that I still feel like a stranger to them.
Many things have changed in 8 years… my niece and nephews weren’t kids at all, gone are the running under the table and jumping on the bed; they are now busy doing their own stuff.
We are all adjusting; I tried to fit in with their routines… Nanay’s breakfast, Tatay’s merienda and kids midnight snacks. They are also trying to know me again… and I know it’s harder on their part especially for my brother and sister-in-law as I was too pushy on many things. But they patiently adjust according to my demands.
The first 2 weeks were really hard; I easily get irritated when things didn’t go my way. I say words that were offensive without considering their feelings.
Thank God that it was not long after I was rebuked by the Holy Spirit; He made me realized that I might offend other people, especially my family because of my actions.
A hot-tempered man stirs up dissension, but a patient man calms a quarrel. – Proverbs 15:18
How can I encourage them to join me in the ministry when I, myself was not living the life that is pleasing to God?
Self-check: Yes, I am guilty. And only through the Holy Spirit that I realized my mistakes and weaknesses…
During this transition, I am sure that I can still do offensive things that might hurt them… but through the Holy Spirit, I am more cautious and more sensitive with my actions; thank God I am guarded and guided.
The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honour. – Proverbs 15:33